There are just some days in life that are not the easiest. Today is one of those days. 5 years ago today I lost my dad. It is very hard to believe that 5 years have gone by so quickly. Part of me still feels like it is unfair that life could continue on without him. Time should have stood still. The world is incomplete without him. However, no matter how I feel time goes on. Life continues and I have to continue Chasing Joy. That is after all what he would want for me. So on a difficult day like today I try to create Joy where there could easily be none. I could stay at home in bed and wallow in the grief of losing my dad. Grief that is still way to easy to access even though it is no longer floating on the surface of my life. But I won't. Instead I will do these two things:
1. Take myself out of situations that can be stressful and that require me to be emotionally stable, aka work. On a day like today it is hard to know if I will feel sad or not. I don't want the added pressure of trying not to cry at work.
2. Do something fun. The last thing my dad would want is for me to sit around and be sad in memory of him.
In his death my dad taught me what unconditional love is. Five years later I can feel him loving me just as strong as when he was her. I am so blessed to be Bill Hartie's daughter.
How do you deal with tough days like the anniversary of a loved ones passing?