Happy Feel Good Friday. Today I am feeling good because It's Christmas Eve, Yay!!!
I honestly have not had much Christmas Spirit this year. I kept comparing this Christmas to Christmases past and this one kept coming up short. The ghost of Christmas past was taking me on a journey to childhood Christmases spent conspiring with my dad on ways to trick my mom with an awful gift before giving her his real gift that was always something fabulous, to Christmas dinners at my uncle's house with lots of extended family, to putting up the Christmas tree with my mom and decorating it with the ornaments we'd made together, to going to see the light show, Charles Dickens's village, and Santa's From Around the World with my parents, to spending romantic evenings looking at the tree and watching old movies with the my ex, and to making Christmas cookies with my ex's children. Unlike, A Christmas Carol this journey down memory lane left me longing for Christmases past and not so excited for Christmas present.
Luckily I have been Chasing Joy and know it cannot be found in the past. So despite not really being into it I've gone through the motions and in the process have found a little bit of my Christmas Spirit. I have decorated my front patio, put up my Christmas tree, finished my shopping, sent out my Christmas Cards and purchased a new special ornament like I do every year. I have decided this will not be the year of "the bad Christmas" that my dad warned me about. I will not look back on this Christmas regretting that I did not keep my traditions and make an effort to celebrate my God's Birthday.
I ended my visit with Christmases past and am focusing on Christmas Present. So today I am feeling good because:
This Christmas I did not spend much money on decorations
This Christmas I got a day off work even though the holiday is Saturday
This Christmas I am really happy with the gifts I got for my nieces and nephews
This Christmas I don't have to drive anywhere
This Christmas I spent less money
This Christmas I can sleep late
This Christmas I don't have to play Santa Clause for someone else's children
This Christmas I don't have to split my time with someone else's family
This Christmas I will have a relaxing day with my mom
This Christmas I am Chasing Joy!
So why are you feeling good today???